"I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee, And am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants. And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him." Luke 15:18-20
Coming into Spring Break, I was incredibly drained. And that scared me. If I were already exhausted, how would I feel after spending five days camping in a tent? After being in SC with 20 other students? After the Lifeline's staff put us through difficult challenges?
But God had everything under control all along. He had been prepping my heart the week before, calling for my attention while I ran around like a chicken with my head cut off. The Thursday before I left for Spring Break, He kept me up at night, and I finally struck up a conversation. It was the first time in a week that I talked to Him 1) by myself and 2) without asking Him for anything. What I heard: "Welcome Home" (cue meltdown).
On the first day of the trip, we were told to read the story of the Prodigal's Son, one that I had read many times in the past. A new verse, however, stuck out to me- verse 19. The son, ashamed of what he had done to his father, decided to beg him for work. I realized that I tend to do this with God. Stuck in my sin or desire for efficiency, I often run around "doing things for God" rather than simply coming to His feet. I try to he His worker rather than His daughter.
God does not need us to do His work, but He lets us partake because He loves us. And we do not have to run around in an attempt to please Him. He just wants us to hang out with Him, come to Him with the good and the bad. He wants us to abide, and He will set out the work to be done.
In SC, I was able to experience the presence of the Lord in His creation, his other sons and daughters, and through daily chats. I did not experience exhaustion after all, and I now feel excited and empowered to finish my semester. GOD IS GOOD- and He wants His children as they are.
- Jordyn Meyenberg