Sometimes the only way out is to go through
On the second day of the Caper’s Island trip, I had a wonderful time with a group fishing for crabs along a saltwater marsh about 1.5 miles or so away from the campsite. However, a few hours in, I was getting cold, and Kenzie’s foot was hurting her, so she and I decided to head back early. As we were walking, the landscape around us was almost an endless expanse of sand. I quickly noticed how unprepared I was for this journey. There was a constant, sharp, and unforgiving wind that would not stop blowing along what seemed like a desert. My water-shoes and pants were completely soaked with wet mud, and any layers I had on, were not sufficient. I thought, as long as we keep moving, we will make it back. But as time passed, the wind blew even harder. I honestly felt like I was going to die, or at-least get frost-bite! At that moment I realized, that entire time I was focusing on the wind and my pain in the wind. The more I fought it, the greater the wind blew. Then, it dawned on me to ask the Lord for strength because He was with me. I also remembered that Kenzie was going through the same struggle, while limping, and we were quietly struggling together. The wind did not stop blowing, but for the rest of the way, Kenzie and I laughed, sang, and spurred each other on. Eventually, we made it back to the camp-site and continued on our way. Looking back to that moment, I can’t help but think that God was using the wind to teach me to trust Him. I too often try to rely on my own strength to pass through painful struggles and difficulties, forgetting that He is right there beside me as well as the wonderful community He has given to me. He also did not stop the wind from blowing, even though I wanted and was praying for Him to. On Monday after the trip, my Uncle David who is living with ALS (a muscular dystrophy disease that prevents him from moving anything on his own but his eyes) posted this on facebook with the help of a machine, “Sometimes the only way out is to go through”. This reminded me, that while there are times that I just want to finish or escape from, God is at work in the midst of them all, and will not leave me alone, but will continue to walk through them with me. There are many verses that relate to this experience, but a few in particular are, “Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me” (Phil 4:11-13) and, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9). Going forward, it is my hope to remember the wind and carry these truths with me not only through the end of the semester, but in all the moments of my life.